Here in Texas

Well I have made it to this huge unfamiliar state of Texas. This is where my children are so this is where I will lay my head and call my home for as long as they do.  I am finding my way around slowly!!  There is the all too familiar Walmarts and Pizza Huts but there is nothing more familiar than the brutal reminder of who I still am. The noncustodial parent. The part time mother. The sideline observer.  I had so much time and countless hours to myself to pshych myself up to be nothing less than a full time mom who was involved in every aspect of my childrens lives and then.......

I AM NO LONGER A NON CUSTODIAL PARENT AS SOON AS I GET TO TEXAS!!!!! So what happened to that lady? Well somewhere here in Houston she jumped ship. But im going to find her. Shes not lost forever.....I do know that!!

I will be leaving for Texas in four days!! My children have been there for 5 months!! It has been horrible without them and I cant wait to hug them both!!!!